meeting expectation....

i have been off work for 2 days now...was under the weather, the cough and flu finally brought me down+ bubbles also had fever+ my maid apparently was hit by a car......hows thats!...anyway..things are looking better today,still coughing did some studying + bubbles is up and running and back in kinder & maid is returning to work tomorrow and same goes to me. Since Sunday i haven't checked my office mails, and today i had a feeling that there will be an email about my appraisals...yes its the appraisal time of the year, and since caveman told me about his today...i had a strong feeling that mine will be in the email...and true enough my "meeting expectation" appraisal is in waiting for my comment by 13Th of Feb.

Am i satisfied with " meeting expectation" hmmm..generally and in normal circumstances i don't give a "toot", since school, i hate the grading system, A, B, C, D..are just evil letters that are used to categorise ppl. So to me coz a grade is a grade, in school u can be an A person but been given a F becoz u screw up in one exam! and at work your bosses never really know what u do anyway but expected something out of this world with very little support and resources but this year appraisal hit me hard why becoz, i think i worked hard and harder then i should, to deserve "meeting expectation" and the fact that two bosses that wrote me the appraisal cant even spell out my name properly makes me wander, if they don't even know how my name is spelt correctly after all the emails that they have been getting for me which i usually don't get any reply until 2 or 3 emails, would they know i did at work and how is my performance evaluated?...my direct boss doesn't even shows up til 3pm on a good day ( on a bad day...u can't even see him for days ) and i do 1/2 of this work most of the time plus I'm getting everything sorted for him like a little secretary...i work long hours to make sure things are OK...i was working 7 days a week for 4 months before he actually consider giving me a day off a week ( excuse was ..." ohh i didn't know u were working 7 days a week"..are u out of your "tooting mind" )...with all this sacrifices, and in end am a " meeting expectation" without a reasonable reason? sigh.......

So my comment to this appraisal is ......Terima Kasih.

10 things i need to do by April...

this is what happens when ure stuck on the graveyard shift with nothing to do, your mind started to wonder and u come up with silly things. Usually i do my shifts from home esp when there is no operations running, but today we have 3 rigs working...however they all idle tonite...but i still have to be here...bummer!.I was here since 3pm today, was suppose to go home and come back for my shift at 9 pm, when imy driver left me...arghhh! to make things less complicated i decided that i will just stay on til 9pm.
its 00:00am...and i still have 8 hrs to go of nothingness...how happening can this be...ohh so very happening!! i just spend 5 hrs googling for bedroom ideas for bubbles and the baby, reading nonsense on the net, update my blog, walking around in my tiny little office to stretch my legs..its too cold to go outside, ate 1/2 of my not soo yummy dinner and i have come up with a list of things that i need to do befor April....

1. spring clean my wardrobe - this is long over due, i still have stuff that i had since like 10 yrs ago like tops that are way to small...bras and undies that need to be trash along time ago..jeans that i cant even put my thighs in ( i soo love my jeans....i think ill keep them ..:O) and stuff that i know shouldnt be in my wardrobe anymore. A fren told me that she was collecting clothes to donate to the GAZA , i think its just perfect timing to do this now. It will be hard...but i think its time to depart besides...it gives me more space for some new clothes..hahahaha

2. Get on with my so called promotion - elaborate..NOT!

3. Learn how to make Sugee Cake - i had this during deepavali at my BIL's frens house...and it was delis..how can i not know this cake exist??...anyone have a good recipe for this cake....hand it over please :)

4. Choose paint,furniture and decorate the kids room - i just found out that the carpenter needs at least 2 months to get it done...arghhhh need to finalize what i need and order them soon!!!...

check this out :http://www.potterybarnkids.com/room/rom/romgir/romgirpuk/index.cfm

5. Looked for bubbles baby clothes and put them a side for the new baby.

6. Make a list of things to buy list for the baby

7. Start the walking regime daily for 30 mins - i think one of the reason im having such terrible back pain is due of lack of exercise.When i was carrying bubbles, i was walking and going up and down the stairs at work while now, im just sitting on my bum all day for 12 hrs and plus i swam everyday til i was 8 months....which i think help in a way.

8. Read Skinny Bitch - Bun in the Oven

9. Find a name for the baby - any suggestions are welcome....thank you very much! :)

10. Get some rest while trying to finish all of the above in time.................:)

here it comes again..

my company wants me to get a promotion, where else me...im quite happy to be where i am rite now, i despite the workload, i cant really complain about the pay infact i am very much thankful.

This, i have be running from since last year..and i guess this time i cant run anymore, it has finally cought up with me and i think i am finally ready for it.Please dont get me wrong, who doesnt want a promotion everyone does..but this one is a different kind if promotion..its take afford, time and support...alot of it. I have to do a project and do like 7 interviews to get the promotion...and we all have to go thru it, caveman did it, samira did it, bassically all of my SLB frens did it..im probbaly the last one to get on the bandwagon.

my boss that has been supporting me since i started work here is moving to KSA (Kingdom of Saudi Arabia) and a new guy has arrived to take his place, which makes me abit shaky...alot of things ran thru my head today...and when i finally sat down with them to give an overview of my project and where i stand, i was abit relieve to know that he is keen on supporting me and will work together to help me get this promotion on time...when is on time..they have a target of Oct...the lasted Nov.Sigh..isnt it like 3 months to go..sigh..

So today i've made up my mind...this will be my last week to slack off..and after this week...come sunday i will dedicate myself to getting it done in the next 3 month before i can be a free woman! :)

wish me luck ladies! deep breath.......

a new start to an old beginning

after a bad month and a great 2 weeks break from the chaos. I have decided to change my views alittle.I need to set my new objectives, i know its 1/2 way thru the year...but is thre any time limit for us to set out on objectives?? i dont think soo..i hate setting goals, i prefer to live life as it is..and live it thru day by day, am i being irreponsible maybe but this is me. I cant say life is bad...alhamdulilah so far everything had been great and we are all thankful for that..i feel like its gone abit messy since ive started work..having to juggle work, family, and life was not easy esp with the kind of work i do...its a riot, but somehow i waded thru it. But now i feel like i need to be more organized so that i can do the maximum with mininum time...equals more time with the family. How do i do this????



Plan...organize...execute.

I do not have a 5 yrs plan..i realise this 3 weeks back when my boss asked me what i wanted in 5 yrs? i laughed and he was amazed...it got me thinking was i suppose to have this 5yrs plan...do u have one? what about my 5 yrs plan for life...and family...sigh....i dont have one...and im not sure about caveman either.

hmmm....wondering... Am i organize...i think i do...but not well enuff i suppose..

when it comes to work,despite of getting good feedback from the boss about my work for the last 4 months...he reckons that i need some kind of planning so that i reach my goals. I have thot about it...and i guess he is rite in some point although i dont like the idea of it , i figured, I dont have to do it for 5yrs...but i can at least set some goals for this year...so that i dont go astray.

i have set some goals now its not fun but i had to be done...what are they....its a secret!..but i will try my best to stick to it and get it done one step at a time...lets see how effective it is!

view from the top

minggu lepas, caveman came home and told me that our landlord is pissed off with the company. Sebab, they did not pay him the rent. Of course la mamat to mengamuk...he was in the states for vacation then balik balik tgk bank acc zero....angin aaa aper lagi..and to make matters worst, the company change some policies and they wanted him to show them the deed of the property...he's like..y now...the family have been living them for almost 1 year and ure asking for the deed!!...die cakap boleh jalan laa....ure not getting it unless u pay me..or else they have to move..and u must know that we have a very nice civilized landlord unlike some..:D

So when i heard that...i was panic la aper lagi, but caveman said that it was not our problem, its the company problem and they have to deal with it.One week has passed and today he came home and told me that its done..the company wrote and exemption and payed our landlord...smilesss...:D.

So we get to stay in our flat 52..:D and we gave the landlord a call and to asked him if everthing is sorted out now..and he's happy again..alhamdulilah..if not nak kene pack and unpack again..takkan....!!!

next month will 1 yr that we have been living in this house...time flies doesn't it...

the graveyard shift

due to the low activity lately, i have been coming home at midnite to continue work at home..i still do the 12 hrs deed but in the comfort of my own home...nice innit! i wish i could do this everyday. Not to mention that power at the office keep dying on me....sekali...dua kali...tiga kali...the fourth time..i surrender..i cannot work like this...so this is another reason why i've decided to work from home..and also me and hassan..my work partner made a deal.....whenever there is one job thats active...we work from home...:) hey that works for me :D.

alot pll asked me...how do i do the graveyard shift??....dont u get scared? hmm...well the moment the clock struck 12am, i lock the door and i stay inside til 7..hehe..but lastnite..i had to go the other office to scan some doc and it was 1am... the nite was chilly and windy..suddenly i found myself walking really fast almost like runnin...to the front office..i dont know what i was running for...i guess i just wanted to get it done and go back to my domain...where i feel safe. So got back to my office and went back to work..then i realise..its not so bad here working at nite..i mean i use to think that its scary to be outside but now...i think i'll be alrite...although dont think ill be wondering outside unnecessarily..kekekke.

i guess its abit different here then back home..u know all the myth and taboo of hantu sini sane...over here..you dont get much stories like that. I have asked a fren about it..and he said that there is no such things..of course they are jins,syaitan etc..tapi nothing as scary as what we hear back home. phewwww...however he did tell me to recited a few ayat ayat in case i get scared.

but get this...i googled graveyard shift and guess what..i found something more scary then the ghouls, its cancer. this is the 1st time im hearing this..but their theory seems pretty reliable..

work..

i thot coming back after a 10 month absence, the company might have change a little...i guess not! its back to slavery......i find myself struggling to wake up at 5 am in the morning to finish up some work....i guess its back to old habits aye....sigh!!!...ohh soo tiring..i was talking to a fren on the phone last nite..whinning and naggin..and this is what she said i quote 'well u dah elok elok jadik nyonya, pastu gatal nak kerja saper suruh...so dont complain"...duch!!! well im not complaining but its i was just expressing my feelings...:D.

it doesn't help when ure at work and u get called from your yummy frens asking u out for lunch or coffee and ure stuck at work...arghhh!!!...i so miss that! yesterday....my tai-tai buddy called me in a middle of the afternoon from the bag shop...and she was going on on about it asked me to come have a look....and im like...'Maria..sorry but im at work"....she had totally forgot that i've started work. :)..but besides that they have been very supportive...thanks babes...

so far work is ok, but since i have totally blocked everything i know and remember from work to make space for my recipes and my tai-tai activities, i must say im a bit rusty, but coming back to work..slowly im remembering stuff that i use to know..and i guess its all takes time..i just hope i remember them all..kekekekeke....
work will pick up soon..and i will be doing the graveyard shifts..just like on the rig!....biggest concerns...bubbles...insyallah will have this sorted out...like caveman said..we will have to bear with it for at least 6 months....what happens after 6 months...jeng je jeng...i have no idea...i hope good stuff!


its funny working with caveman again...its been 2 yrs since we were in the same base..lunching together and etc so it nice but still abit strange!
the office itself...its pretty sad...small and cramped, the new base is being built so they say...but i still see a flat piece of land with nothing on it, co workers are ok so far everyone seems to be nice and i hope they will take me in as apart of their team!

thats my week so far....i pray that Allah.s.wt gives me the strength to face the challenges in life and keep me focus on my beloved family..as i know i will need a lot of guidances spiritually and mentality to have the balance i need...amin.