its over..."doing the chicken dance"

finally....i ended my months of misery yesterday at 330pm.

I finally presented my project to the bosses and got a thumbs up!!...yippee. Although i thot i would be more ecstatic after it was done...the feeling was just slumber. Of course i was happy but i think i was more relieved then happy and it still haven't hit me yet that I'm am finally the so-called "General Field Engineer" after years of trying to put it off, i cant believe i stayed this long in the company never thot i will get to this stage....alhamdulilah...maybe rezeki anak.

Since August, i was working on it, loads of sleepless nites...loads or headache and flu's and not to forget arguments..its finally done in one afternoon...doesn't seems to balance does it...well i guess it never does.  Now, i can concentrate on the "nunu" (that's what they call babies here..nunu) and prepare myself for the big day...mind u i still have a list of things that i haven't done from my " list of things to do before April".

now...its time to trash all the papers away...i managed to collect a lot of paper during since August..and its taking over my bookshelf...and yes..i can read again...super!

Monster in my room..mummy

Nope...this is not a valentines entree, IM not a valentines fan plus..caveman thot that valentine's day was on the 8th Feb..heheheh and he still thinks its on the 8th...its hilarious..so to those who does celebrate the over-rated Valentine's day...Happy valentine's day...:)

so whats with the title...hmmm..this is the story. Bubbles has been sleeping on her own in her room for ages now...no problems..tuck her in..read a book...tepuk sikit..and she is in dreamland...sometimes she does wakes up in the middle of the night to drink, its very dry here, but after that she goes back to bed and wakes up around 7nish. Lately, esp since we have been back from KL she hasn't been sleeping well...its was ok for the 1st one week ( she was probably too tired and still recuperating from the vacation ) but then it started....screaming for me around 2 to 3am in the morning and refuse to go back to bed. She would get off her bed and jump to our room and sleep...soundly till morning and she doesn't even asked for milk or water.

lastnite...i had a terrible cough and back ache...and really cant be asked to wake up in the morning, just wanted to have a good nite sleep til morning. Unfortunately...just as i was about to sleep...i heard bubbles...calling me. I waited for almost 15 mins...but didn't seems to stop her. So i went to her room and asked her whats wrong..she said..' I want to sleep in mummy's room..I'm scared'..'scared of what safeia'...'I'm scared of monster'...' there is no monster...go back to sleep..'..'nooo..i want to sleep with you'...to tired to argue, i picked her up and put her to sleep besides me...and of course i cant get any sleep coz bubbles tido sangat buas...i have to watch her legs all the time.

This morning,i asked her again..where was the monster? she said the monster has gone home..hmmm...funny innit? she had a similar incident when we were in Samira's and Hadrien's place in Sart...apparently she had befriended a fren in the room we were staying..but she was not scared or anything..in fact she was quite happy talking etc...and her fren never leaves the room...he stays under the sink in the room....maybe it was casper's cousin.:)..freaked out samira alittle..:P.

To be honest, im not that worried..i think its normal for kids to go thru with a phase like this since i have asked a few parents...but whats disturbing is that...bubbles jumping in on our bed everrynite...and me having to fight with her legs everynite...sigh!!!..i need to sleep....

Craving...

i have been craving for ..guess what?....air sirap? funny innit, now i know how it feels to really crave on something.On monday, i was at home..resting..i ate...i drank..and i finished a tub of baskin robbins ice cream a whole tub!...after all that i was still not satisfied..no matter how much i ate and drank, i feel that something is not right, somehow i sort of forgotten about it until i was about to sleep....then i had this weird taste on my mouth...of sirap! BANG!!!...i knew that was i was missing today....i really wanted a big cawan of air sirap. I told caveman...of course he laugh his head off...what kind of craving is this...

- the conversation...

me: sayang...i want air sirap, please...
caveman: what?? maner nak dpt malam malam buta nie...esok i carik k?
me :..noooooo...u tak boleh carik here..u have to make it. i did it before...
caveman : huh...how to buat?
me : u letak air, gula, daun pandan and red coloring...
caveman : issshkk...thats like minum air gula..nanti u diabetic nanti how...?
me : but i want!!!!..i want ..i want it!!...i need it.
caveman : hahahahahahahaha....noooo im not gonna make u any.

( and he was out of the room and then i few mins later i heard the him talking in malay to someone...i presume samira..asking her about the air sirap...and then my front door was open and shut....5 mins later..it was open again..and pots and spoon bangin....hehhee...me sleeping in bed with a smile..i think im gonna get my sirap..:)...then i heard him walking to the room....me: pretending to sleep ...:))

caveman : sayang..wake up..nie air sirap you..
me: still pretending to be sleepy with a big smile...yeay!!....u love me dont u...hehehehe...but...hmm..i want it in a big cawan..my blue cawan with alot of ice.
caveman : but u sakit u cannot drink ice..
me:..sulking...( he walked back to the kitchen and fix it )
caveman : nah...happy?
me : glup...glup....happy. Terima kasih sayang....i lap you
caveman : 'kiss' ... thats it no more ok...nanti diabetic kang.
me : :)

i woke up in the morning with tainted red lips...happy...and big pot of air sirap! hahahahaha...and u know what i didnt want any of it anymore...:)

meeting expectation....

i have been off work for 2 days now...was under the weather, the cough and flu finally brought me down+ bubbles also had fever+ my maid apparently was hit by a car......hows thats!...anyway..things are looking better today,still coughing did some studying + bubbles is up and running and back in kinder & maid is returning to work tomorrow and same goes to me. Since Sunday i haven't checked my office mails, and today i had a feeling that there will be an email about my appraisals...yes its the appraisal time of the year, and since caveman told me about his today...i had a strong feeling that mine will be in the email...and true enough my "meeting expectation" appraisal is in waiting for my comment by 13Th of Feb.

Am i satisfied with " meeting expectation" hmmm..generally and in normal circumstances i don't give a "toot", since school, i hate the grading system, A, B, C, D..are just evil letters that are used to categorise ppl. So to me coz a grade is a grade, in school u can be an A person but been given a F becoz u screw up in one exam! and at work your bosses never really know what u do anyway but expected something out of this world with very little support and resources but this year appraisal hit me hard why becoz, i think i worked hard and harder then i should, to deserve "meeting expectation" and the fact that two bosses that wrote me the appraisal cant even spell out my name properly makes me wander, if they don't even know how my name is spelt correctly after all the emails that they have been getting for me which i usually don't get any reply until 2 or 3 emails, would they know i did at work and how is my performance evaluated?...my direct boss doesn't even shows up til 3pm on a good day ( on a bad day...u can't even see him for days ) and i do 1/2 of this work most of the time plus I'm getting everything sorted for him like a little secretary...i work long hours to make sure things are OK...i was working 7 days a week for 4 months before he actually consider giving me a day off a week ( excuse was ..." ohh i didn't know u were working 7 days a week"..are u out of your "tooting mind" )...with all this sacrifices, and in end am a " meeting expectation" without a reasonable reason? sigh.......

So my comment to this appraisal is ......Terima Kasih.

10 things i need to do by April...

this is what happens when ure stuck on the graveyard shift with nothing to do, your mind started to wonder and u come up with silly things. Usually i do my shifts from home esp when there is no operations running, but today we have 3 rigs working...however they all idle tonite...but i still have to be here...bummer!.I was here since 3pm today, was suppose to go home and come back for my shift at 9 pm, when imy driver left me...arghhh! to make things less complicated i decided that i will just stay on til 9pm.
its 00:00am...and i still have 8 hrs to go of nothingness...how happening can this be...ohh so very happening!! i just spend 5 hrs googling for bedroom ideas for bubbles and the baby, reading nonsense on the net, update my blog, walking around in my tiny little office to stretch my legs..its too cold to go outside, ate 1/2 of my not soo yummy dinner and i have come up with a list of things that i need to do befor April....

1. spring clean my wardrobe - this is long over due, i still have stuff that i had since like 10 yrs ago like tops that are way to small...bras and undies that need to be trash along time ago..jeans that i cant even put my thighs in ( i soo love my jeans....i think ill keep them ..:O) and stuff that i know shouldnt be in my wardrobe anymore. A fren told me that she was collecting clothes to donate to the GAZA , i think its just perfect timing to do this now. It will be hard...but i think its time to depart besides...it gives me more space for some new clothes..hahahaha

2. Get on with my so called promotion - elaborate..NOT!

3. Learn how to make Sugee Cake - i had this during deepavali at my BIL's frens house...and it was delis..how can i not know this cake exist??...anyone have a good recipe for this cake....hand it over please :)

4. Choose paint,furniture and decorate the kids room - i just found out that the carpenter needs at least 2 months to get it done...arghhhh need to finalize what i need and order them soon!!!...

check this out :http://www.potterybarnkids.com/room/rom/romgir/romgirpuk/index.cfm

5. Looked for bubbles baby clothes and put them a side for the new baby.

6. Make a list of things to buy list for the baby

7. Start the walking regime daily for 30 mins - i think one of the reason im having such terrible back pain is due of lack of exercise.When i was carrying bubbles, i was walking and going up and down the stairs at work while now, im just sitting on my bum all day for 12 hrs and plus i swam everyday til i was 8 months....which i think help in a way.

8. Read Skinny Bitch - Bun in the Oven

9. Find a name for the baby - any suggestions are welcome....thank you very much! :)

10. Get some rest while trying to finish all of the above in time.................:)

Skinny Bitch - Bun in the Oven

My darling...actually got this book for me..suprise suprise!never would i imagine that he would get me a book, 1st...he doesn't browse in bookstores looking for books except from the travel section...2nd...doesnt care much for books....3rd...hates reading books except the newspapers ( totaly the opposite of me..i hate the papers !! ).

So when he told me he got me a present yesterday, i was estatic..and when he told me it was a book...i was over the moon and scared, in my head.." i wonder what book he got me" coz im pretty sure he hasnt got a clue what books i read.

Guess what he got me..a pregnancy book...awwww soo sweet, i haven't never heard about this book before its like a series of book called " Skinny Bitch" the one i got is " Skinny Bitch - Bun in the oven"

I have yet to read but checking out in amazon.com, this book has mix reviews...some luv it and some thinks its a horrible to be reading while being pregnant!... lets just hope ill finish it off before the baby comes :)



Thanks sweatheart...it was very thotful...Muahsss

They are back!!

Took the day off yesterday to pick up bubbles and caveman from the airport...one week without them seems soo long and im glad they are back.I can see that bubbles misses me, i need to be with her all the time, when she doesnt sees me, she will come looking for me which is soo sweet...mummy..mummy..where are you?..i abseloutely love it when she says this..so for one day, it was only mummy..mummy that..mummy this..:)...bliss!

unfortunately i had to work nights again til next week and today i only saw a bubbles for a few hours sigh...missing her again...belom habis rindu lagi. I called caveman awhile ago to check on her...she's already in bed, i guess 1st day at school after a super long break knock her off. Even im little tired today,i woke up at 2am this morning to pee and i had this terrible pain on my back and i couldnt go back to sleep,had to wake caveman up to rub my back which help alittle and i finally snooze off again and by 6am i was up again, coz bubbles hd gotten up already.

Im finding it hard to sleep these days, its funny sometimes i find my leg numb from being under my other leg...huge hippo legs..:). I read that the best position to sleep in during pregnancy is by sleeping on your left side, its good for you and the baby. I usually try to sleep this was but im such a flipper that when i wake up in the morning im never on the same position hehehhehe, sometimes even on my back which is not the recommended position..so i was told.I know this will not get any better as i get bigger and bigger...need to find a way to sleep and yeah...the gums are bleeding again...sigh!! 2 more months to go....

10 Pregnancy Sleep Tips

Drink up! Drink plenty of fluids during the day, but cut down before bedtime to minimize frequent nighttime urination.

Keep moving. Exercise regularly for optimum health, and to improve circulation (thus reducing nighttime leg cramps). Avoid exercising late in the day--exercise releases adrenaline into your body which can keep you awake at night.

Reduce stress and anxiety. Stress and anxiety are key culprits in preventing a good night's sleep. Remember that worrying won't help you, but talking about your problems will. Find a friend or a professional who can listen and help you if there are issues in your life that are causing you to worry or feel upset.

Get into a routine. If you establish a consistent, soothing, and comforting evening routine you'll be able to relax and drift off to sleep with more ease. As bedtime approaches try a few soothing rituals like drinking a cup of caffeine-free tea or hot milk, reading a chapter of a pleasant book, taking a warm shower using fragrant shower gel, getting a shoulder massage, or having your hair gently brushed.

Get into position. During the third trimester, sleep on your left side to allow for the best blood flow to the fetus and to your uterus and kidneys. Avoid lying flat on your back for a long period of time.

Keep heartburn at bay. To prevent heartburn, don't recline until 1-2 hours after a meal. If heartburn is a problem, sleep with your head elevated on pillows. Also, avoid spicy, acidic (such as tomato products), or fried foods as they may worsen symptoms.

Nap during the day. If you're not getting enough rest at night, take a nap to help reduce fatigue. Find a quiet spot, and relax even if only for a half-hour nap.

Support your body. Use a special pregnancy body pillow or a regular pillow to support your body. For comfort, try sleeping on your side with one pillow under your knee and another under your belly.

Watch your diet. Completely eliminate caffeine and alcohol to prevent insomnia. If nausea is a problem for you, try eating frequent bland snacks (like crackers) throughout the day. Keeping your stomach slightly full helps keep nausea at bay. Eat a well-balanced diet. Not only is this crucial for you and your baby's health, but getting the necessary nutrients will help keep you feeling satisfied and less prone to major nighttime "snack attacks" that may contribute to restlessness and insomnia when you go to sleep.

Get help. See your doctor for advice if insomnia persists. Now more than ever it's important to get the rest you need!